Down

I broke down
I don't know what came over me
I reached work at 815am I think, dunno why just felt so pissed n irritated over de high pile of work on my table and many other work that I am going to face for the day. I couldn't eat my breakfast. I cried a little I don't know why. And I just couldn't take it anymore, just packed my stuff and left at 830am, waited downstairs for my boy to pick me home.

I just felt like escaping, throwing everything down and take a break for today. Didn't know why I couldn't take it and just broke down like that. Maybe I've been doing too much for the past weeks and I just got so damn drained that I needed this break so bad.

So basically I spent my day crying, feeling so scared cos I didn't know what I should do.... I didn't know how it'll be like if this continues on.

Went to boy's house first, drank some of my morning soya bean and cried somemore. Cooled down a while, went to the doctor for an MC, (well I was given a lot of medicines even tho I wasn't really physically sick, just mentally too drained) but of coz I didn't eat any.

Went to CC to stone and thought about what happened while boy's playing basketball. I just stoned and sat alone, but it wasn't that bad. At least it gave me some peace, on a Monday morning.

Went to boy's house again, couldn't remember if I cried again. Had a late lunch of some fish soup @ boy's downstairs. I got more scared when I can't finish my food cos I know it's a clear sign I'm stressed.

Went back to his house, cried somemore. (I believe so.) Ended up in bed crying even more. I've sinned.

My eyes were so tired from a day of tears. But still, I went out with boy to meet his frens for his advanced bday celebration. Thankfully he sent me home early @ abt 9pm so I could have an early night hopefully.

I spent a whole day with him but it might be better if the time we had was happy, rather than me, crying so much. Sorry about de day but thanks a lot for being there for me. Didn't know you would see this side of me, and stayed with me today. ^^