Numb

I'm tired..
I've tried. Somehow I knew this would happen.
Guess I'm numb le.
Enough said.
Goodnight.
You all are probably happy that I'm sad.
I deserve it
It's luck or rather it's just you
Or maybe it's just me
Even if I go on
I can't change anything
So I should stop
bye

*Edit*
I do not know why but sometimes, maybe I think so much that somehow I'll think of you.
Your birthday is coming.
I've never remembered your birthday, even your 21st.
Have you celebrated or thought of how to celebrate already?
Has she celebrated or is planning to celebrate for you already?
Well, I don't want to think any further
But
I hope you'll be happy
Just like how you hope I will be happy

Without you